2012-04-03 17:19:00
Last time I went to the Amstelveen dojo, I had an anxiety attack (only a slight one) after being thoroughly exhausted by the training. At the time it wasn't safe for me to drive myself home, so I was lucky to have Martijn with me. That one event has thrown up a barrier for me to go to Amstelveen alone.
Last week I had an excuse not to attend training in the form of my Standby Duty for $CLIENT. This week I was happy to have Peter-sempai come along, so he could be my proverbial savior if things went wrong again. But unfortunately Peter had to call off because of work, so now I am left to face my anxieties.
I do not want my anxieties to stop me from practicing kendo in Amstelveen. But I would lie if I said I wasn't a bit nervous about going tonight. I'm alone, with no alternative driver to take me home.
as I said: I don't want my anxiety to interfere with my training! I'm going tonight, come what may! I'll just have to be smart about it! If I feel that I've overexerted myself, I will stop for the night. And as always I am prepared for problems! I have enou fluids with me, I have dextrose and a snack with me, I always carry a bag for hyperventilation. I'm just as prepared as I could ever be! Nothing to stop me!
Thus ends the pep talk. :)
EDIT:
I went. It went fine. I was a bit tired at the end, but some dextrose helped out. I trained with the beginners' group and served as motodachi for harai-kote practice. Gave me a good chance to practice my posture and kamae. Roelof-sensei remarked that I was way too tense. He also showed me the proper technique for receiving blows in kirikaeshi.
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Posted by fENZOMANI (website)
Anxiety and sports ? I was going to pick up a sport to fight my never ending anxiety.Is it because we are surrounded by computers (fb,twitter etc) in this digital age ?
Posted by Menno
I say reframe that sucker. Training in Amstelveen sounds like an ideal version of the challenging outings you wrote about earlier. You fear going to Amstelveen alone? Good. An excellent chance to grow!
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2012-04-04 02:24:00
Posted by Jeffrey (website)
You did the right to make yourself go. If you let anxiety restrict your life then it will only grow stronger. Keep challenging yourself!